a horrible violent event

tomorrow is the one-month anniversary, at 4:11 pm, of the most horrible and painful violent event i have ever witnessed in my adult life. written word cannot express the sorrow, guilt and compassionate emotion that describes what i--and more importantly, the people involved--went through. its on my list of meaningful things to do to make a video statement of the event to try and capture in the most sincere way, what an attempted suicide can do to a complete stranger. till then, a photograph of my shaken face the day after it happened in my near-catatonic state: